I’m not a person who walks around feeling blessed. This does not mean that I am not appreciative of my life, nor does it mean I take it for granted, but I don’t think of it as a blessing. To me, that takes the hard work out of the equation, like my life has been bestowed on me. And maybe it has, but I also like to think I’ve had a lot to do with the direction it has taken.
I’m also not a person who looks up. I look down. I blame this on growing up in the city, where your eyes need to be on the ground at all times – especially in the late 80′s when picking up dog poop was not en vogue. The yin to my yang, TJ always looks up. He notices architectural details, the sun coming through buildings. Noah always looks up too. He notices birds in the tops of trees and flowers in unexpected places. But me, I just plow ahead and I miss a lot. And they, well…they step in a lot of dog poop.
Last night, TJ was at the South End with at least 50 excited clients and Abe Schoener of Scholium Project (photo by French Oak TV). Abe came to the store because UG placed his all-time largest retail order, and he wanted to thank us personally and meet our customers. We made a commitment to him, and he honored us with a commitment right back. Everyone was thrilled to meet Abe and try his wines. These are not inexpensive wines, but they are exciting wines. They are the wines you’ve always wanted to try, but were afraid to take a risk on. The energy was electric. This is what TJ lives for.
I couldn’t be there because I had signed up for FenwaYoga long before we knew Abe was coming to town. At the same moment that TJ was doing his thing at UGSE, I was doing a downward dog at home plate. I couldn’t help thinking about the first time I went to Fenway in the summer of 1986, right after we moved to Boston. I was in love with Roger Clemens (it was the skinny Roger, who wasn’t?!), and the first sight of the field when I crested the tunnel took my breath away.
It was cold at Fenway, but we got our bodies moving and had a challenging class, led by Rebecca Pacheco who I think feels eternally blessed, and is pretty great at making you stop and take a moment to let your life sink in. As I lay in shavasana, I opened my eyes and lay looking straight up at the lone star that was right above my head. Here we were in the middle of Fenway Park, in the middle of a city we love, and it was completely still. I thought of all the times I’ve been to Fenway over the past 25 years and how my life has grown into what I’ve always wanted it to be. I felt connected to everyone who has ever walked that warning track like their feet were coming right up through my back, and I could picture TJ just a couple miles away, loving his life too. And while I looked up, up, up at that star, I felt bliss…and blessed.
This was the view from my mat, and yes I did stop a pose to take a picture! Thank you to everyone who helped me with my fundraising and sent me to Fenway Park (and, apparently also on vacation because as the top fundraiser I won two free Jet-Blue tickets!). It was a night I will carry with me for a long time.